Gary: Asperger syndrome and OCD
OCD, depression , Aspergers
syndrome and eye floaters
New e-mails October 2007
( fear of
Anorexia nervosa, agoraphobia, panic disorder GAD.
OCD, Tourettes syndrome, Trichotillomania
OCD, depression, social anxiety/AS, GAD, ADD, Hyphochondria.
Lynda :Anorexia nervosa, agoraphobia, panic disorder GAD.
Below is a short biography
of my late sister, a suffer of
Anorexia nervosa, agoraphobia, panic disorder GAD and depression.
Also see :
A day in the life of an Agoraphobic/Anorexic
Nervosa sufferer an
account of a typical day in the difficult life of my sister.
To see Lynda's
Patchwork/quilting and other crafts click:
My sister Lynda Johnson suffered from
anorexia nervosa along with general anxiety, hypochondriasis, agoraphobia, panic
disorder, social phobia and low self-esteem. From childhood her life was
difficult, her shyness and anxiety was crippling resulting in school phobia,
bullying by other children and adults, and consequently loneliness. Although
very intelligent, as a result of her nervous disposition Lynda never achieved
any academic qualification. Simply trying to get though each and everyday was
difficult enough. So full of the fear of death and illness, so isolated by social
phobia that there appeared little time or energy left for learning. With the
arrival of adulthood came agoraphobia resulting in further social isolation,
depression and frustration. Finding and keeping a job became impossible, as did
social activities. During her thirties after a period of being very overweight
Lynda became anorexic. Obsessed with thinness whilst seemingly unnoticed by
herself her body wasted away, at under six stone she appeared emaciated, craving
food yet afraid to eat should she put on an once of weight. Unhappy with her
body imagine, filled with feelings of inferiority her life became absorbed with
counting calories: Eating lettuce and cottage cheese, drinking calorie free
drinks, denying herself the satisfaction both physically and mentally of more
enjoyable and nourishing foods. She fought this illness at times, even going
into a day hospital. Yet it was a difficult fight especially as she derived
pleasure from being thin, making it far harder to wish to defeat.
At twenty years of age Lynda married
Michael Johnson. They were married for over thirty years during which time he
offered his support during difficult times. Lynda tried to live a normal life
and lamented the wasted years when her courage failed her to pursue a more
satisfying life style, social phobia crippling her attempts to integrate into
society and enjoy the company of others and share in the achievements and
opportunities open to most in the western world, namely an education, a career,
a family and a satisfying life.
However in her late forties Lynda made
an effort to change. After receiving treatment at a day care centre
for the mentally ill in Leicester, she became friendly with another lady of a
similar anxious disposition and they shared a close friendship, something Lynda
had found so difficult over the years. (Mostly we had sought out each other’s
company as children and in adulthood distance had separated us adding to both
Lynda’s and my loneliness.) Also as a result of occupational therapy at the day
centre she was motivated to join a local patchwork/quilting group of ladies who met
weekly to share the accomplishments of this craft. Here Lynda became motivated
to take a City and Guilds patchwork/quilting course and, albeit with a difficult start,
she went on to accomplish a high standard of work. It had not been easy, the
trauma of meeting others, strangers with whom she had little in common, making
small talk, trying to function as normal person but feeling tired and exhausted by her
anorexia, fatigued by constant fears about health, and social interactions.
Sometimes even picking up the phone was a traumatic experience; accidentally
putting on a once of weight was devastating, thoughts of death terrifying, so
many fears vying for possession of her mind and her life.
Sadly in addition to all the mental
maladies that thwarted her life and destroyed her happiness Lynda suffered with
an unusual heart condition. After many years of suffering from palpitations she
was diagnosed as having an irregular heartbeat. Eventually when the problem
became more acute it was discovered through invasive and distressful tests that
she had only three heart valves and would need heart by pass surgery. So filled
with fear Lynda nonetheless completed her patchwork course, not letting her
overwhelming fears stop her from fulfilling this desire, feeling many times as
though she would like to quit, feeling as though it was all too much. Just
before surgery she finished her course work completing a magnificent piece of
art, an appliqué /patchwork double quilt. It has an African theme and is an
intricate piece of hand stitching requiring patience and persistence that I had
not thought her capable. She passed her requirements for the City and Guilds
certificate both practical and academic before sadly passing way at only 51
years of age after the by pass operation to prolong her life failed.
To view Lynda’s work please click