Hopefully back on-line for a while, computer
problems resolved... well sort of. Are
computer problem ever solved, it seems these
days there are just so many glitches that it
takes more time struggling to rectify them
than it does doing anything else. I for
example cannot get on the internet this
morning to read or respond to e-mail. I am
finding all of this more difficult to cope
with lately, right now I have a splitting
headache on what looks to be the nicest day
weather wise that we have had for a long
time. I grow so weary of it all, the
struggle with the computer, the internet, my
mind and my physical health, most
particularly those dammed headaches. But
more than that there is also the lack of
sympathy or even basic understanding from
people in general. Twenty years of headaches
and migraine and I am sick of it all. I have
to go out today a commitment I can't avoid,
well it would make life difficult if I did
and I would feel just awful, and I can't
cope with the need to have to be well, its
bad enough being ill most of the time but
its that pressure to be well that makes it
all the more difficult
But today I am not going to ramble on and
wonder if it is actually worth doing so. To
put all my feelings and experiences on-line
would be very worrying and of late the
motivation to so is lacking anyway although
I keep trying, this blasted headache does
not help.
Here are a couple of Videos I have made for
my sheep website I thought you might like to
see, the videos were taken by my husband and
I of sheep and lambs they are not that
brilliant but we only have a camera. Both
videos
last less that one minute and are uploaded
to flickr .
Playful Lambs
Playful Lambs
Playful Lambs, is a selection of video clips
taken in 2009 and 2010 of lambs playing or
being curious such as the two cute little
lambs who came running up to my husband and
I as we stood at the gate taking photographs
of the flock.
You may need to turn up your volume to hear
the background music, I noticed on my
computer that for some reason the volume is
very low and I had to raise the volume to
its fullest extent.
Credits
Music
Title: Minuet - Notebook for Anna Magdalena
Composer: Johann Sebastian Bach
Performer: Aaron Dunn
Another warm day, at I least I hope so as
last night those by now very familiar grey
clouds rolled in. The last few days it has
been sunny and hot, better for my overall
mood if it were not for those headaches
which are not helped when the sun is so hot,
practically when we are outside. I have had
a spate or continue to have a spate of
really awful headaches this week, more
persistent than usual. I wonder sometimes if
the weather has anything to do with making
them worse than they are usually and believe
me they are bad enough. What with headaches
and OCD it is all getting just too much
sometimes. I struggled out with my family
earlier this week in the heat to
Hadrian's wall in Northumbria, a
beautiful scenic place and a place of
historical interest of course. We visited
one of the Roman forts along what remains of
the wall at
Birdoswald which to be precise is the
Cumbrian end of the wall rather than
Northumbria. There is not a lot to see
of the wall, at least in comparison to what
it was in Roman times when it stood over
three metres tall, there is a mile castle ,
little of which remains and a museum which
is of interest but it is just such a
beautiful scenic place, there is splendid
view overlooking the River Irthing gorge and
on a day like this it is glorious and it
would be such a great day out except... for
my headache.
Grazing on the hillside near the remains of
the wall were a flock of sheep and their
ever so friendly lambs who came right up to
us as you see in the photo below. Poor
creatures struggling to find shelter in the
shadow cast by the remains of the wall and a
tree, they were panting sometimes, awful
breathing so rapidly. Yes indeed the heat at
times can be as bad as the cold for all
creatures and my headache suddenly surged
and I became panicky but thankfully it eased
enough to appreciate the great scenery, the
adorable sheep and the fields full of
buttercups along the way. Yes it all sounds
idyllic with one exception, my headache
which I feared might be migraine but even if
just a tension headache it can be very
painful. The day was difficult, it always is
when you have OCD, my mind always alert for
dogs although of course dogs were required
to be kept on a leads because of the sheep
and also this is usually the rule in English
Heritage sites. I knew the day would be
different if it were not for anxiety over
headaches, OCD and feeling so exhausted.
Here is a selection of photos, I hope to
include more in my flickr account but this
will not be for sometime yet, although there
are a few photos of lambs and their mothers
which I loaded yesterday, as it takes a
while to do anything these days and nothing
is really easy when doing anything with the
computer lately.
Mothers with their lambs came
right up to us. Notice in the
back ground a section of
Hadrian's Wall
The lambs were very friendly
coming so close , with such
curiosity, how anyone can
consider that these creatures
are not sentient is beyond my
comprehension as so clearly they
are aware, and full of life.
Sheep struggling to find shelter
from the hot sun
Section of Roman fort at
Birdoswald
Sycamore Gap and Robin Hood's
Tree said to perhaps be the most
photographed tree in England, it
grows directly on the line of
the wall. This is the tree so
named after its use in the 1991
Robin Hood Prince of Thieves
movie, also the site of the
tallest piece of surviving Wall.
To
see more sheep and lamb photos including a
few of those we took yesterday see my
photographs on flickr beginning with this
link of a mother and her lamb sleeping in
the shade:
Please click the link that follows which
will take you to a selection of Luis's
photographs of a new statue he is in the
progress of sculpting . Luis a sufferer of
OCD, AS, depression and eye floaters Luis
has done amazingly well with his sculpture
course.
Please show your support by clicking the
link below. More photos will be added when
the statue is completed.
It
is not easy when you have to struggle with
mental health issues to create art work or
other creative pursuits and doing so is a
great achievement and it seems that Luis has
a lot of talent.
If
you have some photos of something you have
created, visual art or performing arts,
including photography of course in its own
right, or some of your writing
accomplishments I will be happy to
include them here on the website
