I have today renewed my subscription for another year of hosting for this website, though I lack enthusiasm and my health is much worse. I am not going to go into details as I feel so depressed today. Suffice it to say that until further notice I will not be including much of anything in this blog , which as those who occasionally visit will know has been the case now for weeks.

Firstly I need to remind everyone or anyone, if anyone still visits that is, to please write to me to have your art or other creative endeavour included on this website. Comments are also most welcome and casual e-mail. Please no requests for help or advice. I am just too ill right now to respond to requests for help and my time is limited and besides I am not qualified to offer advice. An increase in back pain and two new types of head pain means I need to pace myself and I therefore cannot spend hours writing to people seeking advice I am not able to give. Most write copious
e-mail for advice and when I can no longer give it or they are not getting anything of any use from me they stop writing without even letting me know why, leaving me to ruminate the whys and wherefores and what I have said that may have caused this and other endless miserable obsessions. Someone once wrote three A 4 pages of single spaced writing. I like an idiot responded, it took hours and hours and I was exhausted. I did get a response and another lengthy e-mail to which I again replied this time no response not even a short thank you for your time and efforts. I will continue of course to write to the few genuine friends that I have - which now is three in number after six years of being on-line - and also in response to helpful comments and for requests to include art work and so on

if things change for the better and I become less depressed and my back stops aching and the headaches ease a bit I may be back to lament about my miserable god-awful life as a suffer of OCD, depression, fibromyalgia, AS, hypochondria and goodness knows what else.

Must say thank you to those who bothered to thank me for spending ten years writing my book about OCD and putting it on-line for free, a rarity in his day and age. I do not have every e-mail of course but I can probably count these people on one hand maybe two despite the fact that some weeks a couple of hundred people have downloaded it! I have of course no chance of getting it published now. One thing though, other than not having to fork out money for all my hard work, you know that it is genuine unlike a published book where the publisher no doubt has a strong influence so that the book will sell. I can't of course say that no published book on OCD is genuine or otherwise, just that I rather fancy that it is not so true to the original content the author wrote where as mine is the original with nothing added and nothing taken away.

Thank you all those who wrote to me and encouraged me and said something nice about my website. Particular thanks to the person who wrote recently to help me confirm that I have AS. Yes still no diagnosis and now with the present situation with cut backs and the government hell bent on destroying the health service and my age I am unlikely to get one. So it was good to hear the opinion of a fellow aspie.

Anyway hope sometime to come back to blogging and I may use proper a blog but I am not keen on this as I will be irritated by all the stupid trolls who surf the net making outrageous comments . You know the kind of morons like those idiots on You Tube.

So another year, for ocd-plus hopefully  but if it does not pick up a bit visitor wise and I am unable to add more material or no one sends any art or writing than I may
re think next year.